I speak of that which comes from places we have not considered, or could never have imagined could be the source. I speak of the unexpected, whether it be for bane or boon.
Recently, I experienced such a phenomenon. Let it be known, ladies, gentlemen, and those who those words fail to properly account for…sometimes the idea of a ‘near-death experience’ can apply to more than your life, and can benefit the same. To be specific, I found my relationship with a friend severely strained – be it known, both parties were at fault – and I was nearly to where I felt the need to cut that friend out of my life. As much as it would have hurt, as much as it would have detracted from my life, I was almost there. It had gotten to where I felt I could take no more of the fighting, and the joy of having that friend was no longer able to combat the pain – much in the same way a person with Celiac disease may love gluten, but has no choice but to remove it from their diet. Luckily, we have salvaged our friendship. Better even, there is good reason to believe we will be closer and stronger for it…especially as, in getting so close to the edge, some of my pain and bitterness fell off. I came so close, and found the calm, almost numb resolve, to dissolving the relationship that I had already begun to leave some of the dead skin behind.
In light of this, I try not to change my philosophy…but I find compelling reason to propose a new one. A philosophy that can only be proposed by Evil, with the benefit of the good in mind. Perhaps even anger, and hatred, can be positive…under the right circumstances. Much like surgically removing a malignancy, the destructive power can be used to remove what is poisoning your life and/or your heart.
The only problem with this philosophy: it’s as dangerous as it is powerful in its potential. You need to know the darkness intimately, in order to hone it as a weapon. You need a strong grasp on what is nearly intangible, and will fight your control, lest it drag you down to its lair. This is why I, even one who proclaims to be Evil for the fortune of good, try not to adopt this seductive philosophy…I know the darkness, but I worry over the consequence of testing how deep I can go.
Know this: the darkness is mystery, and yields things we cannot foresee. They may be worth the fear many apply, or they may be answers to problems we could not have imagined. Those of you out there with pure hearts…know of this discovery, but no not use it. If you cannot see in the dark, you will not know where to cut, and where not to. You may slit your own wrist trying….
